I deeply understood what we all know:
life can end in an instant.
And then I asked myself the question: If my life were to end now, have I done everything I want to do? Would I feel happy? I realized both answers were negative. I was in a relationship where for several years I hadn’t felt very well: stressed, tired, sad, I lost my temper quickly, I yelled and cried very easily.
And I had completely forgotten what I wanted. I didn’t know, I didn’t recognize myself. I couldn’t understand what had become of the cheerful, strong, confident, and dreamy Mary of years past. I had completely forgotten about myself. A short time later, I realized that for years I had only functioned, like a robot. I had functioned, very well, but that wasn’t living.
I separated and began to rediscover myself. There were many stages in this 7-year process. At first, it seemed easy, then I even thought I’d achieved my goal, only to be told otherwise by my body, which included acute and severe hepatitis of unexplained and possibly autoimmune origin. Added to this was what was later diagnosed as psoriasis arthritis. In other words, as a good friend and colleague told me: “You’re a walking inflammation!” And that’s how I truly felt, even though I walked very little due to all the pain I was in. As a result, I decided to finally put myself first in all my priorities. This was 5 years after I had “decided” to do so, when my father died. It was only then that I truly decided and followed through. And so I dedicated an entire year to healing my body with good nutrition, yin yoga, and contemporary dance (my hobby), and healing my spirit and soul with meditation and spirituality (Holistic Therapy, Quantum Medicine, and A Course in Miracles). Then I decided to learn more about it, and a year later, I saw my purpose clearly: I want to share my experience.
